Tinted Glass Window

A real poser for the camera...

And such a monkey when you're all hyper and high on sugar

Whatever it is, you're still my most favourite person on this earth
I do regret not being there during your growing up years
Not spending enough time and taking the effort to be there for you
The countless times that I've pushed you away and find you annoying

But I can promise you that I'll make it up to you soon...and hopefully it won't be too late
Coz you'll be a teenager in a few years time and get into the whole emotional identity search phase of 'This-is-my-life-and-I'm-too-cool-to-be-with-my-family'

It's my wish for you to grow up to be someone who will be a good role model for the younger ones
Someone who appreciates life, love & respect the people around, makes a difference in wherever that you're placed at and most importantly, be focused & know the direction of your life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIN!

Your sis sayang you very much~

This week has been a learning experience as a number of personal decisions or rather goals have been made
In a way, it feels like a fresh beginning with a new direction…OooO so exciting!=D

Just one of them was on the issue of LIFE itself
During the leader's meeting that we had, something which Ps Lindy shared really struck me

~Living life to the fullest~
No longer a cliche:)

The organizers...awesome bunch of people!

Cookie girls

Human auction...something which UCSI has never had before

Prakash who had to go half naked and do a belly dance

These guys had to walk out all the way to the outside shops looking like THAT

Terry had to drink some awful blended stuff

Our MC who somehow got auctioned at the end...well, it's all in the name of fundraising=)

I like it!:)

Remember when you were young and you were forced to do something which you absolutely hate?
Mum would often argue that she knows what's best for you and all her advices are for your own good (think: "I Not Stupid")
Back then, you would always think that she's absolutely wrong and that no one knows what's best for you besides youself
Then you would get all grumpy and sulk the entire time you carry out her demands

At 6, mum brought me to take up organ lessons
At 9, mum told me to attend Mandarin lessons in school
At 13, mum asked me to wash my own school shoes and iron my own clothes
At 16, mum said to choose to go Science stream
At 18, mum insisted that I go to Form 6
All these and many others were things that mum had forced me to do
I remember how upset, angry and dissatisfied I was when I had to follow her demands

But as I grew older and think back, I begin to realize that she was right!
Those things really did benefit me in many ways even up till today and I'm so grateful that she had put me through all that
It really was what's best for me and a mother's instincts is indeed always right (well, almost=p)

In uni now, I have classes that's about the physiological parts of the human beings
You see, eventhough I was in the Science stream during high school, I dropped Biology as I absolutely, strongly & passionately despised it!
It was obviously against mum's wishes...but because I was old enough (or at least I thought I was), I had the green light to decide for myself

You can imagine how much I'm suffering right now, coming face to face with one of my biggest enemy in life
The pain and agony of having to study what I hate most, plus the guilt and regret as I think back about mum's advices

I should have listened to my mother...

During the semester, I was complaining of too much work
When I'm having my holidays now, I'm complaining of boredom

During the semester, I was stressed out with the workload
Having my holidays now, I'm stressed out cause there's nothing to do

During the semester, I was wishing that the holidays would come
When the holidays finally came, I'm now wishing that it would end

During the semester, I always wished to be back home in Penang
When I'm finally back, I wished I was somewhere else
But now that the holidays are ending, I wish I could stay longer in Penang (coz everyone else is coming back!)



Sigh...human beings just find it hard to be satisfied
And I'm also turning into a Complain Queen=(

The other day I had a dream that my teeth was falling out (don't laugh)
It's the third time that I've had this dream
Can't really remember the situations or details of those dreams, but the part where the teeth come falling out was pretty much similar

So, being curious, I went online to see if I can find anything on it based on dream interpretation
Here's what I found: Teeth Falling Out Dream (the title is just so funny lol)

Anyway, I don't think it really helped..sigh
Will make a mental note to remember the situation if it ever occurs again

I'm back in penang! So far, things have been good back home=)
But connection here is really bad and extremely sss...lll...ooo...www....
Argh

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I had a chat with mum yest over dinner and once again we were back to the same old topic
Mum is a typical parent who is always concern about my future and she never really liked the idea of me going into Psychology because she thinks it won’t provide me with a good paying job
I know many people out there who think the same way too and usually the best or rather the only response that they often give when they ask about what I’m studying is, “Well, at least you’re doing what you love” Sigh

Anyway, back to Mum, her usual question is, “What kind of job will you be doing after you graduate?”
Well, on one hand I do not blame her cause I never really had an answer to that as the field of Psych is just so wide and I’m still exploring my options
But on the other, it just frustrates me when she makes it sound as though everything is about getting a good paying job and living a comfortable life
Yes, I am aware that money is important and it is a necessity but I just cannot accept the thought that life is all about making money and chasing after a comfortable and secure lifestyle
People often say that when you have money, you’ll be happy because you’ll be able to have and do the things that you want
But the thing about money is, it’s never enough and you’ll never be satisfied!
Chasing after it will always be a never-ending race and I’m sure you would not want to wake up one day when you’re 60 and reflect back on your life thinking, “Is that it?”

Personally, I think that life has so much more to offer than just that
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that being rich is a bad thing (I'd love to be rich too!) but what I’m saying is, is life all about getting rich and achieving a certain status in society?
What about having a sense of purpose? A sense of fulfillment in life? Finding joy in what you do?
You may call me naïve and unrealistic but don’t you think that as we grow older, we have somehow lost the ability to dream and have a passion and purpose in what we do?
There are countless possibilities just waiting for us to explore out there and we’re all capable of living a meaningful and fulfilling life
It is all a matter of choice and priority

As for me, there is this excitement about life these days that I’ve never felt before
I’m just patiently waiting for a direction and purpose from Him to channel all this energy to
In the mean time, I think I would probably give everything that comes my way a try

We are only given this one life and there is no second chance, so let’s make it a life worth living